Thursday, December 29, 2011
New Year! New Possibilities!
It's hard to believe that there are only a few days left in 2011. As the year draws to a close there is definitely some sadness that our baby did not come to us this year. Jim and I both really felt that this would be our year. We had several almost situations and a match that unfortunately didn't work out. It would be easy to look back and question our choices. What if we had said this? What if we had done that? Would things have turned out differently? Did we miss our chance?
The answer is a resounding no! We don't understand why the wait has been so long, but we still believe more than ever that there is a baby for us. There is an inner peace in us that just won't let us give up hope and for that I am very thankful.
This year has had its difficulties, but it also has had it's blessings.
We saw an increase in our contacts: We updated our letter and did lots of personal networking. Many friends passed along our contact information and blogs. As a result, many more potential birthmothers have the ability to find us.
We did have a match: Even though that match did not work out, someone picked us! And if it happened once, it can happen again. We gained valuable experience about the match meeting and matching process. We also gained gratitude for the amazing workers at our agency who showed us so much compassion and encouragement after the match fell through.
I started writing again: I love to write and it has always been a way for me to express my thoughts and feelings. I stopped writing for a time after we lost our baby. It was just too painful. But thanks to my friend Cindy's encouragement, I started this blog and am loving writing again. My blogs often end up being mini-devotionals to encourage me. And someday this blog will be a great record of our adoption journey.
Many friends and family have joined our journey this year: God really has blessed us with great family and friends who love us, pray for us and encourage us on a daily basis. With our facebook page and blog we are able to keep in contact much more easily and regularly. We are amazed at how many of you go out of your way to post my blog, send us an encouraging word, or just check in and say hi:) Thank you!!!
We do have much to be thankful for this year! Most importantly, God continues to walk with us on this journey. He provides the resources, strength, and hope for us to continue on each step. He has a plan for our future and we continue to put our trust in Him. We look forward to 2012. It's a new year with new possibilities:)